I have three main resolutions for 2020 and each of them are more long-term things more than just ‘go to the gym’, ‘eat properly’. I know I have to do these things but these to me are not resolutions to be made at the beginning of the year. I will eventually do these things but in my own time not when everyone else is doing so. The first resolution that I want to make is to start putting more effort into how I look. Actually, do my hair instead of putting it up in a bun every day, actually do my makeup and wear all of the nice clothes that I own. In the boxing day sales, I decided to buy myself a whole new wardrobe that I can take into the new year. I got rid of all the crap that was in my wardrobe and brought things that I actually like. I want to make a conscious effort into the way I look, and this is the way that I’m going to do it. The second thing that I want to do in the new year, a ‘resolution’ in a way, is to do more on my days off. I get few days off from university and work and I tend to spend these in bed or doing nothing. I want to do more in 2020 and make more memories. This could be just a walk or a trip into town to see friends or maybe even going on day trips. I want to say yes more this year instead of just making excuses which I do have a habit of. The last of the proper resolutions that I want to make this year is to start counselling so that by 2021 I will have left the ghosts of the past, in the past. Over the last 19 years a lot has happened that has in a word been bad and this has left me with some not so obvious to the naked eye obvious. I have dealt with these things and the effect that they have had on me and my life for a long time and I want to stop having them hold me back. I don’t want the ghost of the past dragged up every time I’m having a bad day and to do this, I need to talk to people. To me though I cannot talk to the people I know, it doesn’t have an effect on me. A lot of them have been through the same things as me and are also trying to digest what has happened but with some of the stuff the just don’t understand. They don’t understand the effects that losing people so young has, even if they try their hardest. I’m ready to talk now, more then I have ever been and this year I want to bring the ghosts up for one last run through and then I want to start moving on. This to me is the main goal of 2020 and the one I am most determined to conquer. To be honest they all come in hand and hand after this goal. Ones I start to make amends with my own mind I will start to feel myself again and want to do stuff and want to look nice. All of my goals for 2020 are interlocked. 2020 for me is a year of self-love, a year of finding who I am again and falling in love with her for all she is. I don’t care if she has scars or war wounds. I only care that she is happy and healthy, that’s all that matters. I hope you all had a magnificent Christmas and I wish you the happiest and healthiest new year. Here’s to 2020! xx
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All day I have been seeing posts about voting and I am so happy to see people going out and using their voices. I’m not here to tell you who you should vote for, that up to you. I am however here to tell you why you should vote and how important it is to vote.
Vote for those who have nothing Vote for the disabled Vote for the hungry Vote for the tired Vote for the weak Vote for the sick and the dying Vote for mental health services Vote for disability funding Vote for them who can’t vote themselves Vote for nurses and doctors running on little sleep and minimum pay Vote for teachers Vote for the unemployed Vote for the chronically ill Vote for the children who can’t vote yet Vote for those who you love Vote for the NHS Don’t just vote because everyone says you should, don’t just tick a random box and think that you have done your bit. Look at the manifestos, read about the party’s, read past the leaders. You have till 10pm. Make your voice count. 2014 Christmas was my absolute favourite. It was the year before everything changed and even though none of us new that, it ended up being the best. It was the first proper year that everyone was together, stepdad included, and it was the year that we all spent laughing, hugging, singing, complaining that we couldn’t have our presents till after diner and playing stupid games. It had everything that I loved. The dinner was beautiful, and everything came together so nicely. No one argued and nobody even made snide comments it was all happiness. My grandad wore a hideous cardigan and ate just a little bit too much pudding, me and nan had a lovely time wrapping the presents together and just doing festive things.
The day started off just me mum and my stepdad, we opened presents together, ate biscuits together and just had a slowly start to the morning and then we got ready and headed to my Nan and Grandads. Once we were there me and my Grandad started to do our usual Christmas day rendition of ‘we want our presents now’ and tried our very best to get my Nan to swear. Once my Aunt and Uncle arrived, we started to dig into our amazing dinner. Everything was perfect and just how it should be. Dinner was finished and after all of the presents were opened, we started to play all of the games my aunt had brought round. As usual I lost every single one as I am terrible, but it was worth playing just for the fun of it. Maybe one day I will win. Somehow no fights started over these games and the peace stayed for the rest of the night. There isn't much to say about this year because unless you were there you wouldn’t understand how amazing it was. It was the last year that we had all together and just for that reason I will never forget it. I love every single person who was there that year and I always will, and I want to thank them all for making it such a perfect Christmas.
The last couple of years, due to unforeseen circumstances, Christmas has flown by in the blink of an eye and I haven’t had the chance to enjoy it. This year I want to change that I want to enjoy Christmas as much as humanly possible. Christmas is one of my favourite times of year and I will enjoy it for as long as I possibly can. This year the festives began at the beginning of November. I know that to some people that is early but the only thing that I did at this time was Christmas shop. I decided early in the year I would finish all my present shopping early and then I won’t have to worry about it during December. By the end of November all my presents had been brought and all that was left to do was wrap them which I enjoy doing and class this as one of the many festive activities. During the beginning of December, I won’t be doing much. Ill be working during the weekends and will still be at uni during the week so until uni breaks up for Christmas festive activities will have to be put on hold. I will still be decorating and starting to enjoy the festive things like music and movies. Christmas movies are some of my favourite and I am so exited to start watching them. After Uni has broken up, I plan to go out a lot with my family to a few fayres and Christmas markets. The run up to Christmas for me is the most fun part of Christmas. The day by day build up really does still excite me like it did when I was young. Something that I am excited about doing is going to Winter Wonderland. Every year my hometown has a massive Winter Wonderland and it is the most Christmassy thing I have ever experienced. The music, ice skating as well as the rides are extremely fun and bring out the joy in all of us when we go. Not to mention all the food that they do. I’ve been exited for their hot dogs since last years Winter Wonderland. Christmas is the best time of year for me and I love everything to do with it. The sooner I get to start planning for Christmas the better. I cannot wait to show you all the posts I have planned for Blogmas. I really hope that you enjoy <3 |
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